Anthony Paul Garcia

A POEM I WROTE...

ANTHONY, YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART

AS TIME GOES BY

I THINK OF YOU

MY NEPHEW

SO FLY

I THINK OF MEMORIES OF SCHOOL

EVERYBODY LOVED YOU

YOU WAS JUST SO COOL!

THE CONVERSTIONS WE HAD

LIKE ONE DAY ME A MOM

AND YOU A DAD

I SIT HERE AND DREAM

ABOUT MANY THINGS

YOU AND I

WE WERE A TEAM

FASHIONABLY LATE TO EVERY EVENT

IT WAS OK THOUGH

BECAUSE ON YOU THE FAM WOULD VENT

ANT MAN I THINK IF YOU WERE STILL HERE

THERE WOULD NEVER BE ANYTHING TO FEAR

YOU WERE ALWAYS SO STRONG

YOU MAKE ME THINK OF "HERO" THE SONG

I WISH TO JUST SEE YOU ONE LAST TIME

TO TELL YOU I LOVE YOU

AND TO JUST HEAR YOU SPIT RHYMES

I WISH I COULD SEE YOU LOOKING DOWN ON ME

SINCE THATS IMPOSSIBLE

IN MY HEART IS WHERE YOU'LL ALWAYS BE

I LOVE YOU!

 I MISS YOU!

I DREAM ABOUT YOU!

WHEN I THINK OF A HERO

I THINK OF YOU!!!

Thinking about the days you played PAAL football, boy do I miss that. I'll never forget the time you scored and 80 yr touchdown, I think I ran the entire field w/you on the side line....LOL. Those were your D Sanders- Dallas days.

Or the time I was soooooooo mad at you (can't remeber what you did) and we were on our way to football practice. We drove the whole time in silence no radio, no talking, I gave you the silent treatment and you realized how mad I was and told your coach that your mom was really mad at you....LOL.

 

I Love you Ant, I miss you sooo much.

 Been thinking a lot lately about the good old days. Remembering how ant would always try and tough up me and nikki. He would always say we gotta handle our shit. Lmao. Not always so hardcore but this is the general idea. He would also rat us out. Even if it wasn't anything all that serious. He would be damned if we were gonna act a fool around the neigborhood. Mostly me (so I was a little trouble sue me =^.^=) . I got so mad that he was telling on me all the time and grams was always yelling at me. Until a few years later I realized he was just going to someone who I would listen to OR ELSE! He was always protecting us whether we liked it or not. Thats the Ant I remember. Thank you Ant.

I was driving in the boro the other day and saw my nephew riding his bike and it reminded me of the days that Ant would ride his bike all over the place. It brought back so many memories. He was always good for getting his bike stolen too. There was a time he took his sister's (Kristy's) bike and I told him whatever he did he better not come home w/out that bike. Well it got alittle late past Ant's time to be home but there was no Ant and no phone call, I just knew something was wrong. So I got in my car (as I often did) to find his butt, I knew what friends house he was at. As soon as he seen me walk up and came walking over to the van, and all I could think was, he doesn't have the bike. Sure enough the bike was stolen again and I was furious, because I specifically told him to watch his little sister's new bike. I was soooooo mad I made him get in the car and took him home, on our way home I stopped in the middle of the road and went to the passengers side of the van and told him to get out, I was gonna beat his butt, (he was like 14/15 yrs old) He just said no mom, I don't want to get out....LOL (funny now, not so funny then). Long story short, he knew I would be furious that's why he was scared to come home w/out the bike. Not sure how he always managed to get  his bike stolen...geez, I remember the days I went on bike hunts, sometimes got them back sometimes didnt....LOL MISS YOU ANT. (By the way, there was also a time when he had his car stolen and Mom got the phone call too.......LOL)

I have so many memories with Anthony that I don't even know where to begin but of course my Anthony was a very tall handsome young man and I am only 4"11 (no short jokes - he is the ONLY one that could).  When he would see me he would of course give me a hug and then the kiss, crack his little joke and I would tell him that no matter how big or tall that he gets I will knock him out and he would say "Auntie Bobby I am just joking and grab me and say that he loved me and start kissing me all over my face."  I MISS and LOVED that so much.  

With Ant's 23rd birthday coming up, it makes me think about Ant's last birthday when he just wanted me to make one of his favorite dinners, maccaroni and cheese, sting beans and fried chicken. I remember him calling me up an asking me what I was gonna cook for dinner...lol...of course it was just his way in to tell me what it is he wanted me to cook. I miss you Ant.

My Poem in Memory of My Bro

At the time I didn't even have a clue

Everthing I did, I wanted to be just like you

It's crazy how time flies

What I hate the most, Is that I never got to say Good-Bye

It feels like yesterday we were just fighting over our easter eggs

And you put me in the newest wrestling move with my head between my legs.

I love Those Days.

Anytime I had a problem, or someone had me feeling blue

You were the one I would run to

Her you come, Antman to the rescue, Like you would always do.

You come around, now dude's aint even wanna test you

I just knew You were cool.

That's why I had to be just like you.

You skip school, I skip school

F' it, lets go to school wit our pants backwards, singin the song word for word

(Chris Cross will make you jump jump) LOL

Everybody on us, couldn't tell us sh&*!

Thats how it always was, really, even in high school you use to say...

"Nik all these girls gonna feel me)

You was always right to, Them girls ain't have no choice but to feel you!!!

You was da coolest dude I knew

Another reason I had to be just like you!!!

My whole smooth style originated from you, Always matching from head to toe

Stayed at the damn mall shopping for some moe'

I got it all from you, From the walk I walk to the way I talk came from you.

You are the reason I'm gonna be successful in whateva I do.

It's All Because Of You.

Won't take no sh*$ from nobody because of you

You are the reason why I know how to protect me and mines is you.

I tell you what Big Bro, You are the F'in Truth.

Your the reason why I am just like you.

And you'll never be gone cause your in me and I'm in you.

We could never part, cause you'll always remain in my heart.

Love Forever,

Your Sis Nik

What memory to share it's just so many to choose from. This is a little one but I remember talking to you about us growing up and having kids. I cry thinking about it (maybe it's this pregnancy) but I remember you wanting a kid sooo bad LOL but Shebezz wasn't beat!! She was always trying to be the smart one in the relationship !!! I know how you wanted a pretty little girl. And I wanted a rough little boy LOL (we were always opposite from each other) at the same time so much alike! Now I got a little princess. I sit and think now how good of a uncle you would have been to my little girl!! I know you would love her very much! I can see you kissing her with your big lip kisses  !! I hope you saw the ballons fly high for you at the baby shower! It will always be like that everything we do you will never be forgot! I hope you like our little girls name Aleena Anthoni Parker (you know I had to do it) LOL Just help me watch over her ANT I still need you!!!!                        I LOVE YOU BRO

Hey my love, we were talking about you yesterday as usual and Grandma talked about how you always use to say you don't eat pork,but always left grandma's house with some bacon, loved some bacon but didn't eat pork, we all had to laugh. So Nikki talked about the time you and her were talking religion and you said how you thought about becoming Muslim, but how the problem was that u just couldn't give up bacon.......LOL!!!!! A funny memory I had to share. I love you my son and hope to be together soon. Wishin' everyday I could go back in time. Love you!

Today was for you bro and one of my greatest memories was everyday dog when we woke up one of us had to call the other first to see what was on the agenda for the day i miss that shit man that was the first thing i might be about to pee my pants early in the morning and all i was thinkin was i have to call ant and sometimes i would be thinkin that and you would call and i would have this huge smile on my face i miss you everyday cause me and you was everyday.I got another one tonight i started thinking about us singing and i just got lost in the music everyone was laughing but you know what thats our memory and everytime i sing beauty that was our shit i cry man cause i don't have you right next to me to sound just as bad now i think im singing it for you and i think i sound better then mariah and boyz II men cause you were the beauty in our lives your birthday is coming soon and you know i will be there until then im always thinkin bout you when i look at that picture in that beautiful frame your mom gave me at my graduation i would have loved for you to be there with me i love you so much and i will never stop your always apart of my life and watch us and keep laughing at me everyday for the dumb shit we used to and just know that one day dog we will do it again i will see you soon i miss you and i love you forever.

 

Your Big Bro Deeda

I REMEMBER JUST GOIN TO SCHOOL TOEGETHER, BEING IN THE SAME HOMEROOM, BEING IN THE SAME GYM, GOIN TO THE SAME PROMS, I REMEMBER GOIN TO THE SKATING RINK AND YOU WOULD JUST SPIT RHYMES AND HAVE MADD HATERS. HAHAHA...THEY WERE THE GOOD TIMES, I MISS YOU SO MUCH YO... PLEASE JUST LOOK OVER US AND MAKE SURE WE ARE ALL SAFE AND HAPPY... I LOVE YOU!!!

IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY SON

It broke my heart to lose you,
But you did not go alone
Part of me went with you,
the day God called you home.
A million times I've thought of you
A million times I've cryed
If loving could have saved you
You would have never died
Forgive me Lord, I'll always weep
For the son I loved but could not keep.

 

LOVE FOREVER MOMMY

I remember you loving Christmas and even wanting to decorate your room, you wanted your own tree and Christmas lights. I remember how Oma loved the way you decorated she always wanted you to come and decorate her tree and house, so you always made time to go over and help Oma get her Christmas tree out and decorated. You used to love to come home to a decorated house it made you feel good. I know you must be w/Oma now still decorating her tree. Give her a Kiss for me. I love and miss the both of you so much, sometimes I don't know how I am able to go on. But somehow I do, and it's been the hardest thing in my life. I can not wait to be with you guys, life is so very different w/out you. I love you Anthony and miss you so. Remember I will always love you and I was proud you were MY son.

There are so many memories i just don't know where to start i remember ant and the family thats what it was about and just us together and thatw as our thing and everytime things get a little harder and i have to struggle more i just think about my brother more and that gives me strength because whenever i was in trouble Anthony was there to make sure i made it out ok that is one of my best memories i remember us being to gether all the time and he left us so suddenly and i had'nt seen him in a week i just wish i saw him just one more time just to give him a hug and to let him know how much i really loved him Ant was my crutch yhou were more then my friend we were brothers and everytime i do something positive in life i think about you because if it was'nt for you i wouldnt be where i am today Anthony you made it possible for me to live and i thank you for that just watch over the family i dont get to see them as much as i want because work is so hard but just know that if they need anything i am always there not far away at all and i will take care of them Ant i love you and you memory lives on in me forever  ill see you again friend/Brother just keep doin the things we did and when i do something we did i always think about you

There are so many memories i have of my son. He was a great kid. The one memory keeps coming back when he was around 6/7 and loved Bob Marley. He used to hang out in his grandfather's room singing along w/him to Bob Marley. There was a family function and his grandfather went on stage to perform and Ant was outside running around till he heard his grandfather on stage and came running into the hall in front of the stage and just looked at his grandfather who invited him up to sing w/him. Ant ran on stage and together the sang Bob Marley's 'No Woman, No Cry', I remember everyone being so amazed on how great he was as he sang every word with such confidence. He was so happy and such a natural on stage. If I could go back to those times, where I can just hold him in my arms, I miss him so.

When I think of Ant I think of the restaurant and memories there we all had. I remember Ant commin in sittin at the counter  when I was at work  and our random convos.I remember him always askin me 2  put his orders in (german nights when annelise would get mad cuz he had to add shit to her food she cooked lol) and the MILKSHAKES I made for you damn I always hated doin it but somehow you always had a way of makin me anyway lol. Damn I can't believe your still gone it's crazy but I know your in a better place~And the saying if love would have saved you,you sure would have lived 4-ever is so true and know this!! Love Angie

one of the most recent memories that i have of anthony not long befor he passed just sticks in my head... i was drivin trough the boro and came to the light near dunkin donuts waitin to make a left hand turn and theres this dude next to me yellin "yo ma whats good". i just stared straight and he kept sayin "yo ma whats good". i finally look over and it was ant in his grandmas car waitin to go straight and we both started to crack up. he said "i was testin you, you did the right thing, haha." aslo of course goin through high school together and bein in every homeroom together and just bein proud to hear him say thats my auntie and me say thats my neph. its the greatest feeling.I miss running in to him at the 7 11 all the time and him sayin' "whats good auntie" as his boys look at him like hes crazy and they never believed him.haha. gosh i could just go on. i miss you so much ant.

Remember early mornings at mill pond dog Grandma made us pancakes and eggs and it was great everyday miss doing everything with you dog thinkin bout you all the time i remeber going to pick up your mom from lockheed to and she used to be so scared of your driving you were always swurving lol i miss being scared with you in the car withy ou crazy ass we will ride again soon love you ant.

Me and Ant loved Dru Hill you couldn't tell us nothing late night  some green on the way home listening to the power after hour waiting for beauty to come on cause they always played the beat  no friend could ever fill your shoes ant i love you dog and everyday is still a struggle knowing your not there to talk to you held me up dog when i was going to give up and i made something of myself because of you daddy you made it happen for me and i will never forget just being able to say i knew you was special Love You Dog forever and always.

 

Big Bro Deeda

Well let's see which one will I tell today. Ok, this is a funny one, I'm driving down Rt38 coming home from work. There was a car coming from the other direction and it swirved into my lane, OMG! He quickly swirved back into his lane and as he passes me I realized it's Ant..........  So I grab my cell phone and call him and was like "Yo Ant, you almost ran your mom off the road" He was like "Oh that was you, MY BAD mom, I droped a CD". LOL. His driving used to make me so nervous that when the couple of times he picked me up from work I wanted to kiss the ground when I got out. Anthony hated cigarette smoke, and didnt' let people smoke in his car. But when I was in it, I used to be soooooooo nervous, he would just be like "Smoke a cigarette mom and relax! I got this". LOL. I love and miss you sooo much Ant.

Memories I have so many with my big brother. He was my best friend. I remember one day we got into an arguement (like always we were too alike) He hated the fact that I couldn't find my own friends. I wanted to be just like him so I always hung around him and his friends. He told me to stop following him and get my own friends. Like always I got smart with him and we started to fight. I went to throw water in his face with a glass, at the same time I swung that glass he went to block it with his hand. Next thing I knew he started bleeding all over the place. Now we fought a lot but at the end of the day I loved my big brother with all my heart. I started to cry as his blood went all over the place (ALL OVER) I kept saying I'm sorry I'm sorry Ant I didn't mean to do that. I was so worried about him that I didn't even notice that some of that blood was mine ( I had cut myself also). We had decided to go to the hospital because we couldn't stop the bleeding.We left our lil sister Kristy there to call mom and clean up as she was crying her lil heart out (She was always quick to cry). His friend was there the whole time so we ask him to drive. Anthony hates seeing his own blood he was freaking out has his friend was moving very slow. He started screaming at his friend to get out the driver seat and let me drive (Mind you I was only 15). I jumped in that driver seat so fast and whipped that car out of our drive way. I was determined to get my brother to the hospital FAST. (Still not really worrying about my cut). We got to the hospital and they said that he and I needed to get stitches. I started to cry and he laughed at me. The hospital also offered us anger mangement. We laughed together and said no. Then we left together and did what we do best . My big brother is the reason why I am who I am. He made me very tough. He always use to say the world his tough I'm just getting you ready......(Everytime he use to beat me up) I use to think he just said that so I wouldn't tell mom LOL!!!!!! I can't even begin to imagine who I would be if he was never in my life. He was my everything!!!! Best friend, enemy, Rock, Protector. I still get a lot of respect only for who my brother is!!!!! No one can ever take that away from me. As time goes by I miss you more Ant , love you with all my HEART, and will never forget that my strenght came from you!!!!!!! NIK

Wow. Where to start? Well, I grew up with Anthony so I remember him being very hard headed. I have so many memories of just the silly things he\we used to do. My favorite would be when he was in pee-wee football. Him and his best friend Alex would come crashing down the stairs before a game, slamming their fists on their shoulder pads. And asking me to feild check (kick) their cups. Which of course was fun for everyone. Or even recently when our senses of fashion went in totaly different directions, Anthony leant over to me at the restaurant and asked me, "What happened?". With that akward smile. I simply did the broke leg dummy walk and said, "I dunno yooo."

Anthony memories I have many but the one that sticks out the most was his first day of Kindergarten. Antony insisted that he was big enough to walk to school by himself and to Regina's Despair she allowed him to do so. As we watched from the window because if I recall he didn't even want us outside he stopped at the corner with the crossing guard turned and gave a wave with that beautiful smile that we all adored and miss so much!!! Anthony's Infamous smile could get any of the woman in his life to do anything his heart desired.

O boy memories which one should i share? When my little antman was about 6 - 7 months he was the fattest baby and he laughed so hard when you tickle him and that smile stayed with him always. That beutiful smile that will stay with me forever

I fell in love with Ant the first time I saw him as a little baby boy and we had a pack to get married when he was 18. Well we didn't get married, he grew up and noticed I was too old for him. But I still love him! I can't believe it's been a year that he has gone home to be with our Father in Heaven. I can't wait to walk down that road and see your smiling face to welcome me home too. GOD Bless Regina, family and friends of Anthony.