"DEATH LEAVES A HEARTACHE NO ONE CAN HEAL, BUT LOVE LEAVES A MEMORY NO ONE CAN STEAL."
Anthony Paul Garcia Sunrise June 5, 1986 Sunset February 27, 2007
"If Love Could Have Saved You, You Would Have Lived Forever."
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Rest in Peace Antskii and Poeii
By Antoine Ahiemm
As I'm writing this poem I got tears in my eyes. Its so hard to say two simple words good bye. I don't want to relive the moments, but I have to put this pen to this paper for my two homies lives that were stolen. Words can't describe how I feel, when this all happened I asked God what's the deal. Two of my good friends time was cut short, for this uphill battle I'm going to need God's support. First came disbelief than anger and finally grief. See still until this day I find it hard to believe. I still ask a question why them not me. I guess it's all in God's plan. He must have wanted two of his angels of this land. Where my heart used to be there is now a hole. The pain I felt when they left hurt to my soul. Ant you showed me the true definition of fun. I swear your heart alone weighted a ton. The first time I ever went to a club was on our birthdays. I miss those great memories in the worst way. Poe your the meaning of a true G. I will be forever grateful for the things you taught me. You introduced me to my second family. Until the end of this world y'all will have my LOVE and Loyalty. This is for my homies, I'll see you when I get there. I'll never forget y'all and always know ii care. I know y'all up there with the Angels flying high. So until we meet again this is my Good Bye!
How do I heal my heart
How can I let you go You were my first born My baby boy You filled my days with Love and joy – How do I heal my heart When will the pain be gone You were my reason for living Now that reason is gone – How do I stop from wanting To see you one more time To gaze into those beautiful eyes And know they’re just like mine How can I stop forgetting The pictures in my mind The little boy who grew to be The man, so handsome and kind Each day I long to hear your voice and get a hug from you I hope you're singing in the clouds That's what you love to do Until the angels come for me I'll miss you every day Stay close by and feel my love for you, my son, I pray.
Time is moving forward
But the pain remains the same 6 years have passed now And nothing seems to change.
You were taken so suddenly I could never be prepared For the pain that I would feel For the deep and dark despair.
A dark cloud descended Over my world that day For the loss of my child There are no words I can say.
I long to see your face To see you walk into the room I long to hear your voice Saying Mommy I love you too
I know this will never be I know this for a fact But that doesn’t stop the longing The longing to have you back
I can’t deal with the pain inside I feel emotionally shutdown From the pain that I try to hide. The pain that’s so deep down.
I have asked myself many times Will it always hurt this way? Will the pain ever subside? Will it ever go away?
They say time heals all wounds I really don’t think that is true I just have to learn to live With the pain of losing you.
So on this sad day my son I want to say to you How very much I love you And miss you so much too
If tears could build a stairway, And memories were a lane, We would walk right up to heaven To bring you down again. No farewell words were spoken, No time to say good-bye. You were gone before we knew it, And only God knows why. Our hearts still ache in sadness And secret tears still flow, What it meant to lose you, No one will ever know. When we are sad and lonely, And everything goes wrong, We seem to hear you whisper "Cheer up and carry on." Each time we look at your pictures, You seem to smile and say, "Don't cry, I'm only sleeping, We'll meet again someday." ~Unknown
The days are long without you here, I've sat and cried a thousand tears, that cruel fate did my life destroy and take away my lovely boy. But you can wipe my tears away, you walk beside me every day.
The looming years that, more or less, just fill me with unhappiness, are speckled with some happy times, when rainbows brighten up the skies. I know you're never far away, you walk beside me every day.
There will be anniversaries and celebrations that you'll miss, Oh, Anthony, how we'll miss you then, your booming laugh, your cheeky grin. But you'll be there, you'll find a way, you walk beside us every day.
Sometimes I dream that I'm awake and find it's all a big mistake, That you are here, you're safe and well! with hugs and smiles and tales to tell! And in my mind I hear you say, "I walk beside you, every day."
The road ahead is hard and steep, with hills to climb and furrows deep, and life will never be as good as when you, here beside us, stood. But we beleive that here you stay, you walk beside us every day.
At night you gently touch my cheek and memories are mine to keep, of my sweet son, so deeply missed, since that first day your head I kissed. Inside my heart forever stay and walk beside every day.
Anthony's favorite scripture in the Bible was Psalm 23. If he walked in your house and saw the Bible, he would tell you it should be open to Psalm 23:
A psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever
Nine To Five
Its nothing that you said to me Its not the words unspoken I know its hard for you to see My heart is truly broken
I share a smile but when I pass It just turns upside down Just like my life from day to day No way out can be found
There’s nothing that will fix this Some call it my situation As if one day, I’ll be the same
But they are sadly mistaken
A situation hardly compares To one’s life stolen violently This is a scar I will bear for life It’s a permanent part of me
I have good days and enjoy them My bad days I cannot explain Until this horror knocks at your door You’ll never know this kind of pain
So if you see me crying, Or wiping my tears away Its ok, I’m where I’m supposed to be It’s a process for me every day
Don’t be afraid to talk to me Or mention my child’s name You speak of yours so freely Please treat my child the same
Though to you he may not be living
To me, he’s right in my soul I say his name out loud every day His story, always to be told
Dedicated to POMC (Parents of Murdered Children)
members (WWW.POMC.ORG) Written by Dottie Tapscott 4/27/07 In Loving Memory of TJ and all our Children
This Ribbon represents a murdered child. Parents of Murdered Children is an organization that helps parents and loved ones who are bereaved.
How hard it is
To understand why you didn’t live.
My heart beats daily,
As days go by
and I breath barely
For I can’t understand why.
I know we’re not supposed to question,
That one thing we don’t understand.
But I’m not sure I will ever understand
Why God chose to take YOUR hand.
I like to believe that he took you to save you from grief.
Of a life not chosen, but given to, by the streets.
As your mom all I ever wanted to do,
Was protect you from all harm I ever knew.
You filled my life with such joy,
I was so proud to call you my boy
Good, Bad or indifferent, I didn’t care
You were my baby and no matter what ‘Mommy would be there’
And after all this I try to find gratitude
For the 20 years God allowed me to spend
You are and will always be
the love of my life and now your free
Free from Evil, free from Grief
Free to always watch over me.
I love you, MY LOVE,
For Ant and his Mommy....
As each passing day goes by
A tear falls from her eye
With each day passing her
A memory comes to mind
Without you by her side
Tears and memories compile
Until you meet again
Her memories will form a mountain
A mountain unclimbable
Her tears will form an ocean
An ocean uncrossable
You are her angel
You are her light
Guiding her through her days
And protecting her nights
You may be gone
But you're not forgotten
You are her angel now
And your Mommy she will always be
Until you meet again
She'll cry these tears
She'll release these memories
She shall climb her mountain
she will cross her ocean
OnE day soon
She will be at your side
You will be in her arms
You shall be safe once more. Written By Key Dedicated to Ant and his Mom
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